What math does to me.

There's only 2 things in my mind right now. One that I will not mention here. And the other how much I suck at math.

I suck at math.

This post is an unfortunate result of my doing math.

I blame teachers. 

I blame my lack of attending classes like abacus and shit that teach kids who aren't old enough to spell mathematics correctly to make crazy ass calculations that I have difficulty with after 12 years of normal people math in a mater of seconds. (Please forgive the scanty use of punctuation in the previous sentence - its 11:30 and I'm not in a mood to punctuate certain sentences while being very particular about convoluting them as much as possible, the simple motive being making your reading less enjoyable. I don't really care if my motive has been achieved.. Actually I dont care about anything at this point of time. So forgive the punctuation thing or dont, see if I care) 

Back to what I was saying, I blame how the people who teach me only do the easy questions and leave the hard non-do-able ones for the dumbasses like me. 

I blame their methods of teaching - either thinking I know everything or the exact opposite, explaining tiny things that kids in 6th would know and making me feel dumber than I am. 

I blame the fact that I'm not genetically a genius.

But you know what? It's none of their faults, it's my fault. I can blame no one but myself! I dont slog as hard as I should, and whats worse? I tell myself that I work my butt off, but all in vain! Pssh such lies.

But on my part - it is frikking hard. Every time I do math, I get a huge headache and my head gets literally heated up, I start sneezing, fall asleep, get mad, and develop an insatiable need to destroy something, among other things. And I am no genius, no where close.. and I find this shit extremely difficult.

I'm done.

conclusion - I suck at math.